The End Is Fear

So here I am. Two weeks removed from one of the worst nights of my recent history. So many things going through my head. So... I shall lay them all out here. For you all to see.

That night... A terrible storm was raging through Columbus. And a different kind of lightning bolt hit me from a different kind of storm.

The TRUE Neverending Story

So... hello there, my readers. It's been awhile. Sorry I don't post that often anymore. I have a lot of work to do to adjust my lists too. Eventually, I will get to it. First step is to get back into blogging. Life has actually been pretty good, even with the usual roadblocks of not have confidence in myself or just plain bad luck. I can honestly say my luck has changed for the better. Because of that, blogging has become harder and harder because this is where I would go to vent. I can vent on Facebook, but at the cost of a smaller post. Easier most of the time.

But this topic deserved a blog.

The Taboo Topic

Okay... the topic I'm about to cover is going to be touchy, and personally, I don't care who likes it. I try my hardest not to talk about two topics... politics and religion.

Well this one isn't about politics...

Let's start with this.

I am an agnostic. What is an agnostic? Well, there are a few different versions. With out going into details on all of them, the basic idea is that being agnostic means you aren't sure about something associated with religion.

Yin Yang Year

I know 2014 isn't quite over, but it is coming to an end soon... so I thought I would touch on the three things that define my 2014, one good, one bad, one a bit of both.

Let's start with bad...

FTW - The Economic Juggernaut

Well well well. It seems that it is time for for a new FTW... and this one has been brewing for quite some time...

So let's get down to it...

I say "Fuck Walmart".

Move Over Jimmy Olson

I've never had a post so hard for me to find words for, but I did want to wait until I was ready to touch on this subject. Bear with me, there may be some rambling, and I know I have some tears in there. But I think I got this. What topic?......

Robin Williams...

Been Way Too Long

It really has been too long. So many times I could have posted something, so many reviews I could've done, and it just isn't something I could bring myself to do. So many things on my mind, so many things that I've wanted to do, so many times I've wanted to speak my mind.

And then I finally decided I need to speak.

I'm going to address something that I didn't do this year, because they were close to the same as last year... my New Year's Revolutions.

Usually I just give up on them, because what's the point... but this time I didn't, and it took longer than 2013, but I got most of them. I won't address them in order, but I will... let's begin.

I said I wanted to lose weight. Well, it took getting a scare to get it done, but it is working. I am now a diabetic, and it's okay. Not a total change, but it was an awakening. Not just the diabetes, but personal inspiration... I will get to that later... but the weight loss... I think about 35 pounds in 3 months is a good thing. More to hopefully come.

What about being a doormat? Nope. Not anymore. The power is back in my hands, and feels pretty good. I'm still a little too hard on myself, and there is still a list of things I want to change... but I'm finally going in the right direction. One step at a time.

Now I did mention decorating some closets. I was referring to showing more support for LGBT. I need to do more of that... some of it is out of hand. My state is still being a bitch and not letting these people get married... sometimes I'm ashamed to be a Hoosier... but I'm here anyway.

My voice... well, you see how often I make blog posts now? I'm not doing anything with my voice. Things aren't as bad, so I don't have anything to FTW about... but I might soon. Gimme a few days... I got one. Plus I have something important to blog about... might do that tonight... point is, you will hear more from me... that IS a promise.

Now, the last one I'm most proud of. Um... guess who isn't single anymore? Yeah... I know... shocks me too. And technically, I did what everyone told me to do. I stopped looking... she found me. Granted, I pulled a move I never thought I could... and it worked. What the fuck, right? But me... I found someone, er... she found ME. Me... and like I said, I'm proud. She seems to be the perfect match for me. So much so, it is hard to describe. I do know this... she's got a horrible case of the geek... and that's awesome, cause I already had it, and it just makes me that more contagious. Would you say I'm in love? You bet... oh, I mentioned inspiration. Well, there she is. I won't mention her name on here, until I get permission, because those are my rules on here... but I'm sure she knows who she is. I am Luigi and she is my Princess Daisy(why not Mario? Because fuck Mario!) I love you Cara Mia.

So... you could say, over the course of the last 20+ months, alot of things have changed. Some really sad, but most have been for the better. And I have my Jace & Liliana for that(again, they know who they are)(COOOOOOOOOOOKIES!!!!!!!). They helped me in so many ways. Including being the driving force behind preventing the one thing that has nearly almost always gotten in my way......

Giving up...

Thanks bro and sis... I owe you...

I think I found my voice again...

Sounds different... yet... strangely familiar...

Oh...... WHAT ABOUT BOB?!?

I didn't forget you either...

~The Master is Out

Wow... I've missed this

It's been quite awhile since I've done a post. I'm gonna try do more, I promise. So much to say, so much to catch up on. Now I have to means to try and keep up.

I dunno what all is coming, just know it's coming...

Wow, has it really been that long?

Stay tuned!!!!!

New Year's Revolutions 2013

Yeah yeah yeah, I know I'm late, but ya know what, fuck you. It's been a really long time since I've post ANY kind of post, so feel lucky I'm doing it now.

Since 2012 was full of shit, hopefully 2013 won't be so bad.

Let's find out, shall we...

But let me start by continuing my tradition of setting multiple New Year's Revolutions. Yeah, I know they are supposed to be called Resolutions, but trust me, I know my own life. It takes a revolution to keep fate from kicking my ass.

So, how about we get to that list.

The Master's Follow-Up

I was going to post this on Facebook as a status, when I realized just how important it was to me and this blog and any other blog I've ever had... Those of you that have been reading my blogs for some time already know most of this, so this is for the newer-ish readers out there......... and yeah, it IS directed at one person in particular, but the IDEA of it applies to everyone who has ever stopped by my blog(s)...........

So here it is...

My Birthday Wish

It is all a lie, the world isn't going to end in 2012... it can't, my 2012 has been the worst so far. If that's the case, Earth is set on it's usual course...

Jump with me, will ya?

Anatomy of a Song - The Point Across Edition Part 1

I have put alot of thought into this series of blogs, and for you to understand my frame of mind, I thought I'd do a three part "Anatomy of a Song" posts(s) so you can see the inspiration for the final product. Hang in there, I will get my point across...

So let's begin with Part 1:

Do You Believe?

I finally have my words back. So here is the blog that I mentioned on my FaceBook. Some of you, pay close attention...... It's hard for me to say how and what I'm feeling sometimes, but when you get me going in a blog, I give everything I'm trying to say...

Jump with me...

Love Is Hell Part 3

If you haven't read Part 1 and/or Part 2 yet... do so now... Part 1 Part 2

Jump with me... This one might not be as long... but I'm not sure...

Love Is Hell Part 2

Well here is the next part in the series...... if you haven't read Part 1... do so now

Follow me...

Love Is Hell Part 1

Well, I need to speak up about something that has been bothering me for awhile, not regularly, but often enough that it's been a detriment to my life...... a period in my life that can't be erased, but damn it, I want to forget it...

Follow me after the jump...